yearning to venture beyond the horizons

the starting
it's funny how our friendship started off.
after 3 joyous yet tiring days at the camp, we managed to keep in contact via sms and msn.
i was thankful that you helped me took over my duties for the first day of the camp.
hence, i jokingly promised you that i would treat you to marche after the camp.
this promise was never meant for real.
but it soon became a reason to start off our friendship in the last few months.


the journey
i never understood why i came to support u guys at the biathlon.
we only knew one another for just 3 days and it seemed we've been friends for ages.
few weeks later, u gave me a promise that i was touched beyond words.
u said u would treat me to a movie just becuz u knew i seldom had the chance to do so.
it was ur thoughtfulness that made me realise how fortunate i was.

the following day, we gave u a birthday surprise.
again, i never understood why i turned up.
i was exceptionally busy and tired that weekend
but i took that extra effort to make ur birthday special. (hopefully)
on that night, u gave me my bday present.
it was funny why u still bought me one as my bday was weeks before.
nevertheless, i was touched.

several weeks later, u complained u were hungry.
i took a small little piece of cake and carried all the way to the mrt.
the reason why we met up on the day was superficial - just to return me 10 bucks.
but still, i was glad to meet you, even for just an hour.

on the night of the CLDDS concert,
u took the extra thought and cared enough to ask me if u had safely reached the bus-stop.
none of the rest of the guys asked.
u called and advised me on issues that troubled me then.

on the eve of the chinese orchestra concert,
someone told me your papa was hospitalised.
somehow i was so worried for u and ur family.
i called you and you sounded alright.
but still i didnt felt good about it.
i decided to continue to keep u 'company' via sms even though i was feeling really lethargic.

naturally i was disappointed you cldnt come.
but to see u in the morning, looking as normal as before,
made me felt relieved and happier.

when u knew i had difficulties coping with my schoolwork,
u did something that most pple wldnt have done.
u coach me without me having to pay a single cent.
it was your selfless act that made me felt so gratified towards you.
even though u said u had the time, i knew u're shortchanging yourself with the time
to spend with your family, friends and yourself.
the very fact that u took time off your busy schedule
could not make me feel more fortunate to have you as my friend.

weeks before my napfa test, u knew i had difficulties of running 2.4km.
u were so worried about me that u told me have body checkup at the clinic.
when i protested against that idea, u were upset with me.
during then, i never understood why u were so concerned about my condition.
but after the day ur papa was hospitalised, i knew why.

throughout the months, we poked fun at each other.
u seemed unlike your mature self when we had that piggish msn conversation.
that was the funniest and most absurd conversation i ever had.


the end
i wished this journey of ours will never come to an end.
but of course, i know it is ending soon.
i wonder if the promise u made will ever come true.
even if it didnt, i would not blame you.
after all that u've done for me, i could not have asked more from you.

maybe this journey should have ended earlier
so that i wouldn't carry all these memories with me after u leave.
i do not know when we will be able to meet again.
i do not know how strong is our friendship.
i do not know how u view me as.
i just know i treat u as a special friend.

no, im not talking along THAT lines.
but i treat you not like a normal friend. [not like mr wolfie.]
but as a friend who has showered me care and concern from the very day we met.
a special friend who taught me meanings of life - to embrace carpe diem.
a special friend who showed me what a true friend is.

of course, i wished u will never leave for usa.
but it will be too selfish for me to think that way.
i have been preparing myself for the very day u leave - emotionally & mentally.
but i know it's harder for u to leave
than for me to watch you leave.

our friendship has taken off to such great heights within an amazingly short span of time.
but how will our friendship carry on from here?
i do not know.
but i sure do hope it continues on strong and unwavered.




haha. im not too sure why im writing all this. maybe one day, he will read this. and when he does, i do hope he realise how much i cherish this friendship. (:


* i do appreciate those who read this entry do not post any comments abt it. it's my own personal thoughts. thanks!

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